看见你们开心地、兴奋地
在一起拍照
突然觉得自己容纳不进你们的当中
像一个外人
站在离你们不远的地方
看着你们一个个开心地拍照、说话
仿佛忘了我
已不在你们的当中
原以为这两天的活动
能挽救回我们的友情
特地早早的去到那
被父母质问为什么需要那么早到
被姐姐埋怨需为什么要在塞车时间送我到那里
结果
去到那
换来的却是孤单、寂寞
昔日
我们是大家眼里的三姐妹、三朵花
去到哪，如果三缺一
大家都会问另外一个在哪里
要不然，
如果他们想要找我们其中一人，却找不到
就一定会找其他两位
有些刚认识我们的朋友
知道我们的年龄后
都会很惊讶
为什么三个不同的年龄的人
从来没上过同所学校
却能那么close
他们都以为
我们都同年，同所学校
所以才能那么地close
以前
我们都有聊不完的话题
拍不完的照片
开不完的玩笑
现在？
话题减少了
我们一起所拍的照片也相对地减少了
是我们太忙了吗
我不觉得
现在你们在拍照时
我不在、我没跟你们在一起
你们也没发觉吧
好
可能你们会说
那时后的我不懂跑到哪里去了
是的有几次我是走开了
但是有很多次我并没有走开
转个头
发现你们在一起拍照
赶快的跑过去和你们一起拍
回想起来
觉得自己还蛮好笑、厚脸皮
你们都没叫我一起拍
我自己却跑过去跟你们一起拍
有几次发现你们一大班在拍照
赶快跑过去和你们一起拍
结果
没有位子给我站
没人发现到我就站在你们后面
突然觉得我是多余的
你们已经忘了我
还记得以前
我发生什么事
都会告诉你们
让你们来安慰我
但有好几次
我真的非常需要你们
你们在哪里？
有好几次我一直尝试把我的心情告诉你们
你们却不把我的话当作一回事
自从那次的伤害
你们不在我身边
我就已经很少渴望从你们身边得到安慰
你们没发现我近期很少对你们诉说我的心事了吗？！
虽然我们看起来还很好
是的，是很好
我们什么事情都没发生
只是我们的友情变淡了
它是突然变淡的吗
不是！
我有对你们说过我们的问题！
结果讲了等于没有讲
我一直努力的让我们的友情不要再这样下
特地早早的去到那边
想说和你们玩、聊天和拍照
我们的表面感觉上看起来还是很好
但
其实他们都没发现里面是空的
我们的友情是空空的
就好象一粒皮球
有着美丽的外壳
但当你拿一枝针
在皮球表面刺一下
空气就溜出来
到最后就只剩下那外壳
那时才发现
皮球里是空的
它连像针刺一下的那一点点的刺激都受不了。
外壳就像回忆吧
而那枝针就像我们所面对的问题
忽略
还好那枝针还没刺下
不过对于现在的我们
可能什么事都会变成那枝针吧
我觉得
看了这篇文章
不要问我发生了什么事
因为你们都知道我很直
你问到我
我一定会把我所有的不满都讲完出来
只怕
我所说的不满
会造成你们的不满
不满 ＋ 不满 ＝ 误会
很多的不满 ＋ 很多的不满 ＝ 很多的误会
很多的误会 ＋ 很多的误会 ＝ 大误会
而我不想让我的那些不满
变成了那枝针
我在想
如果你们再不重视我们的问题
可能有一天
我离开了你们你们也不会察觉
哈哈
Monday, April 28, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
i love my darling
Today at school was so funny lar!!!!! I just write some special things that happened today:
1. Today I was busying on cutting and pasting some komsas paper on my exercise book, and chit-chatting with darling, then darling saw me so kelian keep on cut and paste and cut and paste, then darling say she can help me to paste. Hehehe. Darling always treat me so good. (She helped me to done this blogskin, nice right? thanks her much) Hiak hiak hiak. After we finished cut and paste, turn me to help darling to paste her komsas paper and she cut the paper. Haha. What we have done, can found that nilai yang diamalkan ialah kasih sayang, 相亲相爱 and 互相帮忙. I feel that I can score A in moral exam. Haha.
2. Sue Yoong sang 好心分手 in class, then suddenly Joseph says:"边个捉住你噢? 痴X根" with his serious face!! So funny can!!! He alway says those lame things with his serious face make the lame joke more funny. Beh tahan him.
3. During the Math period i was copying my komsas notes, need to hand in the komsas exercise book to teacher today. I think darling was too boring because she keep disturbing me when i'm doing my works!!! 38 ler. Then suddenly darling pronounce the Malay vocable in English, then I play with her too :] ('sendiri' pronounce as 'sand-diary') but I pronounce until like I'm speaking Thailand's language. Haha. After I finished my works, do Math. But we were still playing. We pronounce those English vacable in Malay this time, hahaha, contoh like 'speed' we pronounce as 'sper-erd', 'seconds' became 'serr-chon-d-s', 'calculate' became 'chhal-chu-lar-ter', 'distance' became 'dii-si-ttan-cher', 'total' became 'thor-ttaal', kinda funny lar can!!! :D xD
4. Darling and me started to play again. This time we say some lame thing to each other la. contoh like: your ass so ass (你的屁股很屁), your pimple so pimple (你的痘痘很痘), your boob so boob (你的胸部很胸/凶) something like that. Crazy us xD :D
5. Back home but went to school at 4pm again to practice band. No improvement or just got a very little improvement during the band practice, feel a littlebit disappointed on myself. Mad at someone, a boy and a girl, and I cursed that boy wont get girlfriend forever, I know I should not do this but I can't control myself to curse him because I was too angry that time. To that boy: If you really can't get a girlfriend, don't blame on me, because you ask for it.
6. Went to eat Mango ice and Milk ice(i don't know is it name milk ice) with Fishy And Mic. The ice was so niceeEEE!!!!! It look like ice kacang but the taste and the feel when you taste it was big different with normal ice kacang, the ice was so soft and smooth, feel like eating a ice-cream or cake or even ice-cream cake. Plan to eat again. Hehe
7. Saw Sook Yee and Uncle Prester and Auntie Jacky and Madam Yap at night market. Looking for Shian but Sook Yee told me that she is tuition-ing and later they are going to church.
That's all for today. Miss the time that together with darling today. Fong Sam~ i'm not lesbian. :]
1. Today I was busying on cutting and pasting some komsas paper on my exercise book, and chit-chatting with darling, then darling saw me so kelian keep on cut and paste and cut and paste, then darling say she can help me to paste. Hehehe. Darling always treat me so good. (She helped me to done this blogskin, nice right? thanks her much) Hiak hiak hiak. After we finished cut and paste, turn me to help darling to paste her komsas paper and she cut the paper. Haha. What we have done, can found that nilai yang diamalkan ialah kasih sayang, 相亲相爱 and 互相帮忙. I feel that I can score A in moral exam. Haha.
2. Sue Yoong sang 好心分手 in class, then suddenly Joseph says:"边个捉住你噢? 痴X根" with his serious face!! So funny can!!! He alway says those lame things with his serious face make the lame joke more funny. Beh tahan him.
3. During the Math period i was copying my komsas notes, need to hand in the komsas exercise book to teacher today. I think darling was too boring because she keep disturbing me when i'm doing my works!!! 38 ler. Then suddenly darling pronounce the Malay vocable in English, then I play with her too :] ('sendiri' pronounce as 'sand-diary') but I pronounce until like I'm speaking Thailand's language. Haha. After I finished my works, do Math. But we were still playing. We pronounce those English vacable in Malay this time, hahaha, contoh like 'speed' we pronounce as 'sper-erd', 'seconds' became 'serr-chon-d-s', 'calculate' became 'chhal-chu-lar-ter', 'distance' became 'dii-si-ttan-cher', 'total' became 'thor-ttaal', kinda funny lar can!!! :D xD
4. Darling and me started to play again. This time we say some lame thing to each other la. contoh like: your ass so ass (你的屁股很屁), your pimple so pimple (你的痘痘很痘), your boob so boob (你的胸部很胸/凶) something like that. Crazy us xD :D
5. Back home but went to school at 4pm again to practice band. No improvement or just got a very little improvement during the band practice, feel a littlebit disappointed on myself. Mad at someone, a boy and a girl, and I cursed that boy wont get girlfriend forever, I know I should not do this but I can't control myself to curse him because I was too angry that time. To that boy: If you really can't get a girlfriend, don't blame on me, because you ask for it.
6. Went to eat Mango ice and Milk ice(i don't know is it name milk ice) with Fishy And Mic. The ice was so niceeEEE!!!!! It look like ice kacang but the taste and the feel when you taste it was big different with normal ice kacang, the ice was so soft and smooth, feel like eating a ice-cream or cake or even ice-cream cake. Plan to eat again. Hehe
7. Saw Sook Yee and Uncle Prester and Auntie Jacky and Madam Yap at night market. Looking for Shian but Sook Yee told me that she is tuition-ing and later they are going to church.
That's all for today. Miss the time that together with darling today. Fong Sam~ i'm not lesbian. :]
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
MY NEW BLOG!!!!
Ok darling ask me to update my blog, so I post this article out, I have no idea what should I write. Haha. OK, I have done a new article, got a "jiao dai" to my darling liao. See ya :D
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